This is actually quite difficult to admit, but during this last year I’ve struggled with just sitting back and being thankful for the life I’m living. I always wanted to be somewhere better and I strove to make my future exactly what I have always envisioned it being. Through doing that I was never okay being exactly where I was because I was obsessed with making whoever I was going to be in five minutes the absolute perfect thing imaginable. Living in the present ceased to exist because the only thing I was presently was obsessed. I took away something I loved, which was this firey appreciation for the present and created an obsession for the impossible.
So, this is quite new, and something I could quite potentially struggle with every single day, but this year I am thankful for the unknown. I don’t know what’s coming. I don’t know who I am going to be or where my career is going to take me. I don’t know what will be sitting in my bank account or if there will be a ring on my finger in ten years. And I am thankful for that. I am thankful for not knowing my future adventures, but trusting myself to take me on some amazing ones. So, as I am sitting here today and as every family member asks me “so, what’s next” my “I don’t know” isn’t out of fear, but rather out of faith, because whatever unknown has to be better than any crazy future I have meticulously planned. Today and tomorrow, I am thankful.
This is my Thanksgiving post from last year.