Thoughts On My Impending Graduation
Hello you guys, I have said it multiple times on here, but if you don’t know I am graduating with my Bachelor’s in December. Lately, it has slowly been hitting me that I am graduating in eight weeks… For one, it’s just super strange that this is ending in December and not May like I thought it would for so long and two, I don’t know if I am ready to give up the atmosphere of constantly learning just yet.
I go in and out of the post-grad fear, but lately, after riding a looooooong moment of fear, I’m feeling pretty excited and confident. I know these feelings will probably begin to fluctuate more rapidly as the ‘end’ gets closer. But, I have this little seed of confidence in me that says “you can do this” which I am holding (tightly) onto.
I was driving back to my home-home the other day and thinking about how many times I have made that drive and how many different frames of mind I’ve had while taking that familiar route. Honestly, I began to like hardcore cry, because I am just so overwhelmed with thankfulness of the growth that this chapter has forced out of me. I have gone through some seriously tough moments, but also seriously amazing ones and just thinking about every single one of those drives really put things into perspective. From the extreme sadness, to severe anxiousness to intense prayer to overwhelming joy and celebration, that small amount of quiet time I took for myself to drive to my home are huge mile markers for me.
I talk a lot about my emotional growth, especially on here, but I have grown immensely as a professional too which is something I never really thought I would admit. Shocker, but in college I have actually learned and I am happy I am not entering the ‘real world’ without that molding. I think out of everything the '“no’s” I received will be, if I become successful, one of the main reasons I am there. All of those rerouted paths have led me to a place I am excited about professionally.
My plans after graduation? I am not going to put them out there exactly just yet, because honestly, I am not completely positive exactly what they are. I can say there is a pretty good chance that I may not live in Texas forever though (;
Overall, I am excited about graduating. I feel good about putting a bow on this chapter where I’m thinking it will end (a lot can happen in 8 weeks, right??) It’s a tad surreal, there are many moments where I still feel like I am just beginning, but then the fact that I’m a somewhat seasoned college kid hits me in the face and I realize just where I am.